Trying to get adjusted

Still trying to get adjusted back to being home. At this point in time I have been back just a little over a month now. I'm still not truly happy about being back but at the same time I am happy to be back I don't know if that makes any sense to you. Just took two weeks off but could't go anywhere do to me having to buy a new truck which took all my final spending money away for my trips that I was going to take when I got back home. So for two weeks now I been waking up early and just getting into my truck and take long drives close to home here in Tampa. It really sucks not being able to travel when you want to and also when you have the time to do it. Now I will have to start looking for a night Job to help pay for this truck that I just recently bought. So what's next for me I don't know right now hope that I will be able to set some money aside for next month because I'm going to take some more vacation time of since I have 80 Days to burn up.

Don't feel good about being home

Just sitting here tonight and finally wanted to answer all who keep asking the question are you happy to be home. Well actually I haven't felt anything yet. There is no change from me being overseas. Just don't know if it will hit me soon or later. Right now just dealing with issues that I don't wouldn't have happened. But I'm a person who deals with a lot of things and other people issues. I will make it through this move and will stay strong. Had to buy a new truck quicker then I wanted to and I feel sad about that because I let someone use my truck and when I got home no one bothered to tell me what was wrong with it. I had to find things when I got into the truck and man did that really broke me down. I'm happy about the new one but it didn't leave me time to shop around like I would have. I love Red vehicles but I had to settle for a white truck which is still ok but I just love my vehicles Red. Back to work now but it don't seem the same and there are two people there doing the Job that I do. Go figure that one out . I can't believe that it takes two to do my job but after seeing what they both do it is a waste of money and people let them get away with it. I never seen a place that pays personnel to come in when they want to and when they are there they are doing school work online. Most times they are not there when you need them to be and you don't get good results out of them or you waiting for answers. I will give things another week before I start putting people into place where I feel comfortable about them being there and also the people in charge of them.

boston after church

tuesday, october 23, 2007, 6pm

a meeting will be held at Greater Love Tabernacle Church. The purpose of
this meeting is threefold, first to call together all senior clergy
together, second to meet with all youth pastors and youth ministers, and
third to convene about a strategy to unify and from a spiritual
perspective, combat the violence that is plaguing our city.
The conveners of this meeting are in agreement that this is the time to
come together in unity and in strength as a body of believers to address
the role of the church universal. This effort begins the process of
strengthening and rebuilding our communities. In particular, looking to
the church as the standard, as we restore our future one youth and one
family at a time.

Please note that we are trying to best accommodate you by providing dinner,
please RSVP to Minister Evans @ Greater Love Tabernacle – <
http://us.f387.mail.yahoo.com/ym/Compose?To=greaterlovetab@aol.com>
greaterlovetab@aol.com, or to Lori Nelson at lnelson@btpc.org, or <
http://us.f387.mail.yahoo.com/ym/Compose?To=lnelson1172@tmo.blackberry.net>
lnelson1172@tmo.blackberry.net. We need to know of your attendance by
Monday, October 22, 2007 at 12:00 noon.___________________________________

wednesday, october 24, 2007 7pm-9pm
"the word iz bond"
boston's gospel hip-hop fellowship
every 2nd and 4th wednesday of the month
w/dj chris grant, dj triple threat,
& dj soundmind
prayer, worship, cypher, build

"the last fellowship was a great start. we have a variety of brothers and
sisters who attended: from emcees to poets, deejays to producers, all sorts
of people older to younger, each one filled with the love of GOD making
sense hip-hop for themseves."

13 dudley street, roxbury's john eliot square



for info call chris at 6172403333
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thursday, october 25, 2007 7pm-10pm
innersession
worship after church every thursday with 3 hours of undivided devotion -
prayer - music - dance
w/dj chris grant & kai love

a comfortable loungy atmosphere
wear regular comfy clothing-sweats


15 dudley street, roxbury's john eliot square



music: fred hammond, freda battle, donnie mcclurkin, marvin sapp, kirk,
roy davis jr., george russell, yolanda adams, juanita bynum, kenny bobien,
clarks, and sherwin gardner, just to name a few
-traditional & contemporary worship & praise, soulful, jazzy, &
afrorhythmic deephouse, reggae & rhythm & blues

for info call chris at 6172403333

____________________________________

saturday, october 27, 2007, 7pm-10pm
just for you
open house fellowship
15 dudley street, roxbury's john eliot square

check out our space!!
listen to some tunes!!
try chris's jerk chicken!!

This open house fellowship is for you, the Beantown Believer, to chill with
us and view our space, it's available for more positive & creative rental
uses, within reason of course.
This street level loft styled apartment is perfect to rent by the hour for
small "Christian" functions and gatherings, we have had many types of
gatherings before, such as


* baby, youth, or adult birthday parties
* baby or wedding showers
* lounge & cafe nights

* praise parties and intimate performances
* singles and married fellowships

* church services

* meetings & workshops
For events we also have a crew of deejays that can spin Any Genre of
Gospel:
(ie.Gospel:Hip-Hop,Reggae,Jazz,Deephouse,Calypso,Latin,Reggaeton,Traditional,Worship
& Praise,Funk,Oldschool Dance,R&B,NeoSoul,etc) and we have access to local
musicians, vocalists & rappers.

Located Centrally yet discreetly between Roxbury Crossing & Dudley Station,
we are minutes from most central parts of the City.

Knowing full well the lack of inexpensive rentable function spaces, we hope
that when there's a need or inspiration for a gathering space, that you
take advantage of this opportunity. We would love for it to be used by the
Boston Body, for building it up.

SPECIAL PRICE FOR EVENT RENTAL:
$150 / 4 HRS.
$250 / 4 HRS. WITH SOUND

for info. call chris@6172403333
or email: sekulah9@yahoo.com

don't forget
it's this saturday!!!

see you there!!!
__________________________________

Boston Oct 25th: Introduction to Fundraising Workshop

This Thursday's Fund Raising Academy Is Introduction to Fundraising

Union of Minority Neighborhoods
Presents
Workshop #1
Introduction to Fundraising:
How to raise the money you need to make a difference
Finding it difficult to raise funds? Uncomfortable asking for money?
Unsure of what to say? Learn what you need to sustain your
organizations, how to plan for success and how to motivate your
boards and volunteers.

Thursday October 25, 2007
6:30 pm – 8:30 pm

Boston English High School
144 McBride Street Jamaica Plain

2 blocks from the Green St. station on the Orange Line
Free parking lot next to building

Trainer: Sue Karant

How much? Only a $5.00 donation to pay for materials.

INSTITUTE OF NEIGHBORHOOD LEADERSHIP'S
Fundraising Academy
This workshop is part of a series designed for directors,
staff and activists of color.

FOR REGISTRATION AND INFORMATION CONTACT: Union of Minority
Neighborhoods 617-541-4111
umnunity@gmail.com


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Union of Minority Neighborhoods
83 Highland St 2 Harris Ave
Roxbury, Ma 02119 Jamaica Plain, MA 02130
617-521-4111 617-522-3349

www.unionofminorityneighborhoods.org

Sad Day in the Army

You know I find it really messed up that Soldiers Serve over seas for their Country but when it comes to award time these Soldiers don't receive anything. Well I do know we have the weight and height standards but if the Soldier is doing an outstanding job regardless of the requirements then I feel they need to be taking care of. If they can come here and work just like everyone else then they deserve to be awarded like everyone else. It was a shame tonight to watch a Unit leave and three of their Soldiers didn't receive an award and the sad part about it these three in my eyes were the hardest working Soldiers the Unit had.

Bored out of my Mind

Sitting here bored out of my mind today. Had to come in to work because I needed to turn my vehicle in for service which means that I will have to sit here all day doing nothing. I found my picture on here at my cousin house ans scanned it to myself but it was kind of messed up from the scanner and I was able to clear up some of the issues with it. I don't have to many pictures of me growing up so I wanted this one to be posted on my page. Looking forward to getting back home with the Grandkids and taking my a nice trip somewhere. About 16 more Days to go and I will be back in the states. Soon I wont feel like I'm in a prison camp and I can get out and go places like all free men and women should. Trying to determine now if I should by a new Truck or put more money in to the one I have now since it is payed off.

 

Time close to Leaving

Wow it is getting close to time to go home now and tempers are starting to fly high with all the bull that's going on here. People are getting upset with last minute changes that are going on. From the very beginning the Leadership here seems to always do things at the last minute and with out thinking things over. This for me is a poor planning Unit. Maybe the worst that I have been in since my Military Career has starting. This is why I no longer want to be in the Service for reasons such as this and with the Military promoting Soldier so fast they don't have the time or training to actual be Leaders. Some of these kids can't even take care of themselves no you want them to put the lives of other Family Children's in their hands. Woo this is very very scary to be part of. So where do I go from here well I don't actually know just yet. I know that I have 5 years to go to have 30 years of Service. So what direction do I go in after that. Right now I been taking classes on Criminal Justice so I been thinking about maybe something in some kind of Security. I really don't have any ideas yet but I do know it is time to start thinking about the future and weather I can manage to do 5 more years. This old body just can't seem to take it anymore time to put me out in the pastures with the cows lmao now that was funny. People are like aren't you happy yet and I tell them no because i'm not home yet. When I put that key in the Door and open it then and only then I can say I'm Happy

Grand Father Passing

It's a Shame that Family don't try to stay in touch with each other. My Grand Father has died but his immediately Family members didn't even bother to try and contact me or my Mother right away. Is that bad or what and now I just found out the day before his Services suppose to be conducted which don't give either of us time to even make it there. Some Family we have there. If I didn't call home today I would have never known at this time he was gone.

Bored out of my Mind

Man can it get any more boring then it is now. Just sitting here waiting on stuff to come in so we can load it up. So bored that I been here taking snap shots of my crew just doing nothing. Got here at 1200PM to work to find out we wont start until 8PM tonight so we have to sit here all that time trying to figure out what to do. So for one I started checking my pages and emails and even trying to find some sites that I never been on before. Will someone hurry up and get me out of here. Could have been back in my room getting rest or even moving to a new building.

Friends are not who they suppose to be

Hello all it's me again reporting in. This subject is about friends again sorry. Well I been friends with someone since 1997. We this friends as long as I have know her have had some issues with dealing with people. Now we are at the point where I can't even joke with her without her getting upset about it. The other day I just sent an email stating get to work I see you sleeping over there and her reply was F---U I mean jokingly I can over look that since we are suppose to be friends okay. If this person have a problem with some one joking with them they she should have put this out ahead of time since we been friends for a while now. I'm at the point with her that it is time to say good bye for good and let it be that way I tried this once before but I was told when you in a cliche you are stuck in it. I never knew I was in one well thanks for telling me ahead of time. Some time she will talk and other she don't so I'm still trying to figure out how I fit in with some one like this. In my opinion I don't I don't need the hassles that goes along with her Ego I guess you can call it that. She was once an Enlist and how she is an Officer well you think that has something to do with it, well maybe so maybe the rank has gone to her head and any case a friend is suppose to be a friend no matter what. Well I don't know what to do here but my Heart say let her go as a friend and wish her well with her life.

Madden Tournament

Entered my First Madden Tournament on the XBOX tonight and went on two the third bracket before I lost. This was the first time that I actually played the XBOX. For me the Play Station is the way to go. Now I will have to admit that the Graphics on the XBOX seems much much better then the Play Station but do note that I haven't Played the Play Station III yet. Will have to try that and see which one I want to buy when I return to the States.

Nothing more for me to give!!!

Well another Vessel has come and gone. I don't know how many more I can deal with before I leave here. I guess I'm getting to the point where I feel like there isn't anything more for me to do here. I know other's want to try and get me involved with what is going on here with operations but do note that I know more then you think I know. I'm also feeling the more input that I give just seems to me that no one listens to what I have to say or my suggestions. So I will say this I will just work like others until it is time for me to leave. Don't ask me for much more then that because I don't have anything else to give. My main goal right now is to take care of my Personnel and bring them back safe and sound to their Families. Some times I sit here and wonder why am I here doing what I'm doing when I should be doing other Jobs. I know that my Job here is very very Critical but you still have to wonder why?. Well enough notes for now I will be back soon to write more since the LT wants more bad writing to make him laugh. I guess you could say that this isn't a bad thing to put your thoughts down and to review them later in life.

Father's Day Care of Officers

LT. you started this. Well Sir, you got me thinking again about Officer's again today. Having Officer's around like I said before is like having 8th Graders or should we take it back to Kindergarten. Let's start with LT A, he's the Class Clown and thinks he God's Gift to the World. I mean he is alright and everything but he has his special little moments. I have been told that he has been on the Enlisted side so sometime I feel that he has to overcome something that may have been done to him in the past by someone. By him wearing his Bar's, I guess he likes to see how much crap he can get away with but Sir you don't bother me or the Troops so we will keep rolling with the punches. LT R. he thinks he is Patten in some way. Ok we know you are in charge but you don't have to overdo it. Guess that you had the wrong nipple growing up lmao. Okay now LT H. to me is like having Judge Dredd around, I don't know if you seen the movie but with him I see the TERM I am the LAW yeah OK not in this Country try again when we get home. LT T. lol you guys need to stop picking on me I'm a LT Dammit and I have rights and I will try and get my way even if I have to take you down. LT E. Yeah I might work here but hey I don't know what’s going on did you ask me a?’s. Well you need to talk to me SGT's when they are here which is like not forever oh wait they plan 4 day passes with all the Females. Good luck to you man I hope that they are not having that time of the Month at the same time. CPT R. you know I'm scared to stop picking on me and guess what chumps I out rank you now so get down give me some Push Ups. LT L. man I forgot about you after I got started on this one but I actually find you like the care taker out of the entire Officer’s sort of like being the Guardian but as you know and make sure that LT A. knows that I'm the Vessel Daddy of all.

World Part II

Damn LT Get Off My Back,I know you been waiting on me to post some more writings and here is a small sample of me getting back to what I need to be doing. Thanks for the push and may I continue to make you laugh. Well I posted before about being in a World all by myself. Well my friend or Working Sister I should say have made some improvements but not to where I still see her. She had me a few calls which were nice at the times that she called me but I still feel left out. I was getting on her the other day about her myspace page where she has picture of her and some other guys that we worked with here in the unit. Well I can't actually proved that they really hang out but from time to time I see them together with her and I do believe they have went out to town together. I mean the calls are great but it isn't the same when you hang out together as friends should do. I always get the saying you know I love you and I got your back but when do you really have it. That same old feeling always come back that I'm just here by myself. I'm not trying to complain about it and it does get old at times. Recently I finally came to the conclusion they hey I don't need anyone but myself,my Family and some friends back home and specially I need to have God in my Life and nothing other then that matters. I will from this point on just wish her the best for her in her life and where ever it will take her. I will not be the same person with her as I once was because I can't continue in my opinion be a sucker. LMAO that was a funny statement. I found that I do have some True Friends back home that I really didn't realize that was there for me more then I knew. Hey guys thanks for being there and the emails and the comments on myspace page it means a lot to me. For those of you who took me for granted Peace out and I hope that you read this and be careful who you screw over in the future. You have really lost a true and good friend in me.

Damn LT Get Off My Back,

Something to think about

Several years ago, a preacher from out-of-state accepted a call to a church
in Houston, Texas. Some weeks after he arrived, he had an opportunity to
ride the bus from his home to the downtown area. When he sat down, he
discovered that the driver had accidentally given him a quarter too much in
change. As he considered what to do, he thought to himself, "You'd better
give the quarter back. It would be wrong to keep it." Then he thought, "Oh,
forget it, it's only a quarter. Who would worry about this little amount
anyway, and the bus company gets too much fare already; they will never
miss it. Accept it as a gift from God and keep quiet."

When his stop came, he paused momentarily at the door, and then he handed
the quarter to the driver and said, "Here, you gave me too much change."
The driver, with a smile, replied, "Aren't you the new preacher in town? I
have been thinking a lot lately about going somewhere to worship. I just
wanted to see what you would do if I gave you too much change. I'll see you
at church on Sunday."

When the preacher stepped off of the bus, he literally grabbed the nearest
light pole, held on, and said, "Oh God, I almost sold your Son for a
quarter." Our lives are the only Bible some people will ever read. This is
a really scary example of how much people watch us as Christians and will
put us to the test! Always be on guard -- and remember -- You carry the
name of Christ on your shoulders when you call yourself "Christian."

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.


I am glad a friend forwarded this to me as a reminder.
God bless you; I hope you are having a wonderful day! If you do not pass
this on to anybody, nothing bad will happen but if you do, you will have
ministered to someone.
The Will of God will never take you to where the Grace of God will not
PROTECT you... Stay FAITHFUL and Be GRATEFUL!

The Weight of Guilt

READ | John 3:16-17


False guilt can be an intolerable weight for the believer to bear. The
nagging sense of shame may cause us to doubt the Lord's love and
goodness. We might even start to wonder if our salvation is real.
Thankfully, we can find relief.


First of all, it's helpful to identify the root cause of our guilt. For
example, it might involve legalism or criticism. Next, we must affirm
three truths:


One, remember we are special. Any reason we give to "prove" otherwise is
a lie from Satan. Each of us is a one-of-a-kind creation. Ephesians 2:10
says the Lord created us and blessed us with specific talents and
abilities meant to be used for His glory.


Two, remember we are loved. God sent His Son Jesus Christ to die for our
sins so we could live with Him eternally. We don't have to do anything
to earn His love. It's already ours for the receiving. We simply must
believe He died in our place, was buried, and rose again.


And the third truth is to remember we are forgiven. If we confess our
sins, He forgives. First John 1:9 promises us the process is that
simple.


The Enemy stimulates false guilt. Our final step must be to renounce his
lies. We must make a declaration to this effect: "In the name of Jesus
Christ, I reject these feelings of guilt. They have absolutely no
scriptural basis. They are false, and I refuse to acknowledge them." As
a result, the heavy weight of guilt will lift from our hearts.






The Grace of God

READ | Romans 5:1-2


Grace is far more than a mealtime prayer or a popular name for girls.
The word communicates the idea of blessing. As children of God, we're
the recipients of His abundant grace. Let's examine how we experience
this amazing benefit of His love.


We see God's favor in our salvation. Ephesians 2:8 tells us, "For by
grace you have been saved." The blessing is undeserved and unearned.
Nothing about your or me prompts God to save us. He acts purely out of
His goodness. He sacrificed Jesus so we could be reconciled to Him and
adopted into His family.


Grace is also the sphere in which we live the Christian life. Colossians
1:12-13 points out that salvation transferred us from the kingdom of
darkness to the kingdom of light. Here, we live out our new identity as
God's child and glorify Him.


The beauty of grace becomes clear when we consider our former condition,
hostile to the Lord and alienated from Him. Ephesians 2:1 says we were
spiritually dead and lived according to our selfish interests. Now,
through faith in Jesus, God has justified us and given us new life.
According to Romans 8:1, He's declared we have right standing before
Him. All of our sins were placed upon Jesus, and His righteousness has
been credited to our account permanently.


Picture yourself living in the favor of God. Accept this truth, and then
give the Lord thanks.

Missing

Amber Alert.

Staff Sergeant Rick Williams
Rolla Police Department
1007 N. Elm St.
Rolla , Mo. 65401
(573) 364-1213
Fax (573) 364-6346


Please look at the picture, read what her mother says, then forward this message on.



My 13 year old girl, Ashley Flores, is missing.
She has been missing for now two weeks.

Maybe if everyone passes this on, someone will see this child.
That is how the girl from Stevens Point was found by circulation
of her picture on tv. The internet circulates even overseas,
South America , and Canada etc.
Please pass this to everyone in your address book.
With GOD on her side she will be found.

"I am asking you all, begging you to please
forward this email on to anyone and everyone
you know, PLEASE.

It is still not too late. Please help us. If anyone
knows anything, please contact me at:
HelpfindAshleyFlores@yahoo.com
I am including a picture of her.

All prayers are appreciated! ! "

It only takes 2 seconds to forward this.

If it was your child, you would want all the help you could get!!
(in order to include the picture you MUST reply to the poster, highlight allsad the info, go back to post a bulletin, and post!!!:[

Thoughts for 12 May 2007

I kind of in that (funk mode) in that lost period again as of why am I here. Well downloading another Ship today and I pretty much don't have that much to do today and have too much time on my hands. My personnel plus the new personnel that has just arrive are out doing a pretty good job here and I don't have to sit here and monitor them. Some times it feels not having to worry about them taking care of business . It makes me look good but I don't need the Glory and Praise at most does as long as they are happy then i'm good. I will miss the personnel who just left because some of us came to be real close. They have also taught me alot of about what I need to do here. The learnig wasn't to hard since I have some what worked in the same field in my civilian life (shipping and receiving) so I have a good understanding of what is going on. The new guys seem pretty cool as I was really attached to the old ones who just left to go home. I assume I will be just as close to they guys as well in due time. Well today I have too much time on my hands which has me thinking too much again. This is not a good feeling because now I feel lost again and no one to talk to so where do I go from here. I can watch so many movies and surf the internet when it is working. Sorry service goes in and out all the time. Last month the internet almost drove me crazy because the guys who's in charge of it went on vacation and left no one to fix it so I couldn't access it. Some time it would pop up and other time there is noting to look for. Wow 6 months have come and gone and 6 months left to go if we don't get stuck here. You know there is always a chance of that happening but I hope not. Standing out here on the Pier tonight missing my family and friends the few I do have. Officers especially the young ones what are we going to do with them. They are just like have privates or teenaagers around lmao if you know what i'm saying some times I feel like they are 8th Grader's. For the first time in my life I find myself wanting to just give up on my job as Supervisor. My last Deployment really wore me out and I didn't want to have to deal with them again just wanted a job to do then go home. Well guess what got deployed again and what was the first thing they did to me was give me soldiers. Don't get me wrong I Love the Soldiers that I have right now but sometimes we do have issues. Dealing with Soldiers and some of the issues they have is starting to take a toll on me again and i'm like wow what did I get myself into when I could have just stayed home after I got sent home from the Mob Station. I try to take care of them as much as possible and try to save them from all the bull crap that is going on here. I been trying to keep them with me as long as I can since some sections and mine have been losing some from time to time. Then there are times i'm like maybe I should just let them go to the sections that want them so they can see for themselves what I really do for them and maybe they will understand what I mean. Lately I been feeling that I don't have what it takes to be a Leader anymore I don't think that i'm giving up just the way that I feel. Am I wrong for feeling this way. The Soldiers coming in today really don't know what hard work is and want to make everything easy for themselves well I hate to say it but sometime you have to work hard and long days at that. Last minutes issues always come up and you have to make sure that the job get's done. Then there are times when Soldiers get upset because things are not the way they want it to be but welcome to the Military Folks suck it up and drive on. Enough for now I will be back on here very soon to write more. For those of you that Follow my writings Thank you.

In a World all by myself

Once again I come here to write stuff on my Blog Page on how I feel and again I don’t really know where to start ok but here it is. If I seem to being going back and fourth because of the thoughts always circling my mind. There are quit some issues with me these days and I don’t know what to do about it just yet. I feel like I’m in a world all by myself for the following reason. Number one I didn’t have to be here in Kuwait but no I had to listen to Soldiers saying SGT Sanders we need you to come back and go with us. Well to this day I think they people don’t care two cents about me for they don’t call me they don’t talk to me unless I go see then or they need something from me. The other bad part about some of them is that I work with them every day back in Tampa. I really thought we were close friends but that that feeling went out the door. There is one that Is suppose to be my Sister right but when I need her most she is never there for me or take care of what I really need help on. I will say this for her she does do a lot but not when it is really important to me. She is really like a Sister to me but I wished that she really had my back like she always say’s she does. There are more things I could say here but I will leave it alone for right now. There’s the second co worker I should say even though she just started there also wanted me to come back to go with them now either she really meant it of it was just a game to get me come back. She stated to me that if you don’t come back then I wont talk to you I’m like wow to myself. Now we are deployed over in Kuwait you think I hear from either of them think again. There are few others that wanted me to come back as well but these two really hit home with me since we work together every day. The other people I will say maybe just like having me around I guess I can’t really speak on that note. Some days I sit here and wonder why did I come when I could have been home with my family. Grand kids who want me around because they love me. I gave that up to come here with soldiers who don’t care one red cent about me how such a fool I been. I guess the last few days I have had too much time to think here that I really made a big mistake and coming back to Kuwait. I have more friends online then I do here or in real life but haven’t met any of them yet but they care about me more then my so call friends here or co workers. At least they check up on me all the time to see how I’m doing. Thank you guys for the ones who know who I’m talking about you will always be in my Heart. I know this will make some people mad with me but right now I don’t really give damn how they feel. Why should I do they care how I feel. I have asked them to hey just share a movie with me or even just go eat chow together. Well I to busy that’s what I get form them well so am I busy as well but I make time for my friend or wait I don’t have any. If there is a mission I go to work and come back to my room when I’m done that’s really my life here. Even on my days off I just sit in my room. I buy movies to past the time away. I have no one to hang out with or even talk with as a friend. I do have my room mate that I work with every day but we have our problems or issues that we go through. But the bottom line for me right now is that I’m always here for people and always trying to help people but I don’t feel they are here when I nee d them most. Who knows maybe my feelings are wrong at the moment but that’s just how I feel. Like I tell everyone I came here before because I know I had a purpose to be here to protect the soldiers now I don’t have that same feeling at least then I knew them and shared time getting to know them. I’m not asking anyone to give up their time or to get married lmao that’s a funny one all I need is for someone to check up on me from time to time since I do that for you. This is just part one of this statement part II to soon follow.

He's at it again

Man I tell you this I never met someone so selfish in my like until now. I have an Officer who has once again pulled some strings. First of all when we were Mobilized he decided who could go and who couldn't. Now he is trying to make himself look good by trying to pick th best people to get the job down. Well I feel sorry for him because he didn't get all the best. for one you have me and about 6 others that is just as good as the people he picked. I'm glad he didn't pick me because I know we will be thrown at everything thats comes up. Another thing is that i'm still working for one of the original Officer in the unit which is much better for me since I have know him for two years now and the other one is just some one filling in a spot on a temporary basis. He doesn't belong to the unit in the first place. It's funny how people can think they are getting the best when they are not. Too bad for him lmao.

Needing to take a Deep Breath

Hello all sorry I haven't been here in a while. I'm currently serving time over in Kuwait. Things are ok here but could be better. I really don't know if my last trip here was worst or not. I still have 10 more months to figure that one out. The Leadership here isn't what I thought it would be and even some times I wished I hadn't come back. I did have a choice and I chosed to come here and help the Soldiers as I did once before. They need someone to watch over them and somewhat protect them from the Senior Leadership. I don't know how I always get into this situation but I do. The work is easy but changes are made so much that most of the time you don't know what it right or wrong, coming or going. We do the best with what we have to work with and drive on but it seems that it is not enough for some people and when things goes wrong the group I work with are always to blame. There are others that are being hit as well as us and it is not fair. I know that in due time everything will be fine but most likely by the time we leave.