Losing my Mind

Over the last several months my life has changed dramatically and I don't know what direction that I'm going in. I seem to hurt everyone that I come in contact with. My mind just hasn't been the same and most times I find myself lost and confused. I know the best thing to do it put my faith in the man up stairs. But even then sometimes I just don't know and how to even really go about it. I know people say pray and I do but not like I should. So as of now I'm kind of stuck and lost, hurt and more confused than ever. I will keep my head up and try to make it on the best I can until I can figure things out or my Father will show me the way.

Needing Job

I guess in a month or so I will find out what it will be like to be homeless. Everyone seems to think that I have money cause I'm an E7 in the Army. Well everyone seems to forget I have bills as well. I'm paying for a house , truck , car and utilities for a home that I'm currently not living in. Also I'm paying rent , utilities for an apartment in another location. I have one month rent left and if I don't find a job soon I will be forced to live in my truck. But do you think people care. From my stand point everyone is out to get what they want or ask me for stuff I just can't provide. I'm not saying that this is bad on them but they need to realize that I can't even help myself right now how can I help someone else. I just don't know what to do I been looking for work but just like everyone else I'm filling out applications online and never get any feedback. If I had the money I would be more than happy to help whoever needs it.